I Just Need Time

Hey dear, can you hear my whispers when I'm really missing you?
My tear drops won't hide all my love to you
Don't you really know, when you're hundreds of miles away.
My heart cries and break into pieces.
Everytime I call your name, you won't be here for me.

If I say this now:
"Why you should be here"
"May you'll be back"
"Be here together with me"

I just need time.
to understand you.
to make us sure.
when that time arrives, maybe tomorrow it happens, all we see is beautiful.

Have you ever know, when you are hundreds of miles away.
My heart cries and break into pieces.
Everytime I call your name, you won't be here for me, anymore.

If I had to say this now:
"Why you should be here with me now"
"Will you be back here for me forever?"

Can you hear my whispers, I am so missing you.
Now you're so far away. My heart cries and breaks into pieces.
Have you spare a room in your heart for me to be back in your love?

All I need, just a time.
To ensure you.
To understand you.

(derived from Maliq n d'essentials - Beri Cinta Waktu)

I hope you understand..

N.

maturity doesn't come by itself

I wrote this, in the name of love, and for the one I love, (may you read this, dear)

hey, have you ever know that, its not love we called the end point.
hey, don't you know, people won't feel what they call true love, if they don't wanna get hurt.
hey, don't you know, that I won't give up?

yes, I do believe, our parents are numero uno.
yes, I'm with you, early age is our best time for learing everything but love
yes, we can find love wherever, even is slums.

but,
have you give me your mature answers?
have you been mature?
do I have to soften you down?

don't you know that.
ceramics can be shaped when its still a clay.
when the clay hardened, you cannot shape 'em up.
all you can do, just break that ceramic, breaks up into tiny bitsy little pieces.

don't you realize.
even the hardest beautiful precious diamonds, will be shaped by smaller soft diamonds?
nobody will love a raw diamonds, no matter how precious it is
but when it is shaped up by soft diamonds, it become undoubtly valuable item.

one last request,
have you been a mature kid to understand everybody's feeling?
I don't think you have, but I believe you will.
someday. maybe 50 years from now on.

be a better person

now i realize I haven't shown everybody my best attitude yet.
I haven't been the best person in my family.
I haven't been an exciting person among friends.
I haven't been the caring person on to her.

now, i promise you my loyalty.
you want me to be loyal, you got it.
i apologize for my being so long.
i haven't been the best man for you.
but i promise, my queen.
I'll always be there for you.

N, all you need to know, I do still love you.
withour any doubt, please forgive me and give me my second chance.

you can think me as "the good man when fond of something"
you can think me as "going red-face and coming back white-face"
you can think me as a liar
you can think me as a bad-bad man
no, when I mean I love you, its for real
when I care for you, means I really care you for your love.
and I really hurted when you think me just as "somebody who cares me"
you gotta realize, as I realize you

N, I do love you, really, deep from the heart.

new hobby

hello, and welcome. now I'm back with a new hobby.

yes, back one week ago, my lovely Daddy just bought us a new DSLR camera, Canon EOS D1000. yip, practically a simple to use, DSLR camera for beginner.

Shortly, here are some of my dad and I shots, or should I say masterpieces. :P enjoy"

my family (by daddy):

Pacific Place, by daddy:

parents and brothers, by me:

fatboy, by daddy:

masterpiece, by me (grille of dad's Mercedes-Benz E320 Masterpiece):

a place I called "home":

Highway Star (by me):